Uncontrollable.

The stress is eating me alive. I hate this feeling I get every day. I'm so nervous. It feels like my stomach is dropping. Or butterflies. It's horrible. I'm on the edge of tears praying he won't snap. It's so much harder to fix something that's not under your control. It's so hard to control somebody else. I understand he way he feels but at the same time I jut want him to calm down. I understand the hatred he feels because I feel it too. Bu I know how to control myself. If he snaps...it's all over. Everyone will hate him even more. Everyone will hate me. I will lose best friends. It's so hard to deal with this. He promised me he wouldn't do it but still...the tension is killing me. I still feel like he's gonna hit he breaking point and not be able to control himself...he's going to ruin everything, I can feel it. I'm just waiting in silence for the day to come.