Insecurities.

Why is it so hard for people to accept my decisions? It's my life; not yours. You need to stop worrying about my life and my opinions and my decisions. Let me just live my life. 
I really hate when people try to tell me to do something because THEY want me to. Not because it's better for me or anyone else, just them. It's hard to deal with people sometimes because they try to get me to do stuff that I don't want to do. I'm so close to giving in to peer pressure.
But no; I'm better than that. It's my life and I'll make my own decisions. I know what's good for me and what's not. I'm not THAT stupid. 
Peer pressure. I used to think it was easy to stick up for what you believe in. But it's harder than I thought. After a while it gets to you. It's eating me alive. Why is it so hard to just say no? Why is it that everyone cares so much about what everybody else thinks of them? Is it because they're insecure? Is it because they want to be cool? Or maybe they just don't care. Could it be that they don't want to lose the friends that they have? Maybe it's the fact that everybody just wants fit in. 
Nobody's perfect; no matter how hard you try, you will never be perfect. Everybody has something that is wrong with them; everybody has their own little insecurities. Me, I have a lot. I think more than most people. It's so hard for me to do normal things because I'm always so insecure. I always feel like I'm never good enough an I need to be perfect. But nobody can. And I try to keep that in mind. But it's harder than it seems. 
I have really bad trust issues. I don't think there's really any remedy for that. I've been hurt too badly to forgive and forget. My insecurities combine with my trust issues and make every day a living hell for me. I try so hard to convince myself that people are my real friends and that they love me for me. But my insecurities get the best of me.